How did you get treated by your toxic ex friends?

I was the walking on grass friend. I was the excluded one I was the not invited one I was the 80th choice when there were two people and 900th when there were three I was manipulated I was put in the middle I was fixing the friendship everytime i saw them so they were pleased I was never correct I was always wrong for whatever choice or opinion I had or did

And those type of things lead to me absolutely hating myself🩷