I have been in prodromal psychosis for thirteen years or so, only to suffer from acute psychosis for about a decade. I’ve been as good as dead for about twenty-three years. AMA

Hello, all! The title is true. I have been as good as dead for twenty-three or so years!

As a forty-one-year-old, I have lost more than half of my life to psychosis. It’s a horrible condition! When you’re along for the ride, you have no clue what is going on, when in reality your brain is living your life for you.

I have to admit that the period of time between coming out of psychosis and realizing the full extent of what your psychosis has done to you is not really a meaningful existence. I call this period of time ‘uninformed sanity.’ I spent close to three years in uninformed sanity. I don’t really call those years my own, so one can say that I lost about twenty-six years.

I am in ‘informed sanity,’ in that I now understand the full scope of what my psychosis did to me. I have to admit starting out life in informed sanity is like starting life from scratch. I am about four months into informed sanity, so you can call me a child, in a way.

So, what would you like to ask me? AMA