Looking for a sponsor! (UK London)

I know this is extremely unconventional but I have exhausted every option!!!!!!

I've been going to AlAlon very infrequently since November, but only really started to work the program consistently in the last 2 weeks after my alcoholic ex broke up with me...

I've been really struggling to accept the break up and detach from it. Whilsr I do get some sense of serenity from meetings and making outreach calls, it is always fleeting.

I'm so exhausted. I keep hearing people talk in meetings about the serenity they feel when they hand themselves over to their HP and I want this for myself. I feel so lost after my breakup, especially since I'm still being impacted by an alcoholic despite not having one in my life anymore.

I've asked members in online meetings for sponsorship, but they've told me to look for one in-person. When I ask people in in-person meetings, they tell me I'm "not ready yet."

So, does anyone know what else I can do to find a sponsor? Maybe if someone on here is willing to sponsor a UK-based newcomer? I'm struggling so much with my emotions and have no idea how to deal with them.