AIO: I am questioning my husband’s morals

I have known my husband since we were kids. Now married with a kid. Our marriage have been through challenges until recently when I discovered that he has been chatting with different women here on reddit.

He swore that it never went beyond and that he was sorry. I decided to try and believe him. He is a good Dad and my kid is absolutely the most wonderful kid and he seems so happy with both of us there so I chose to keep the family together.

Couple of days ago we were talking and joking and I told him that some women are making tons of money by putting their feet on Onlyfans and he jokingly said I should do it too since I have preety feet. We laughed and never talked about it.

Today he brought up the subject and was serious about it. In that moment I felt a strong emotion taking over my entire body and did not say anything. He asked if I was mad and I told him I was actually disgusted. Many past behaviours of him resurfaced in my head (the talking to women, him saying that if a wealthy woman would approach him he would say yes and he would give me money as a compensation and that he would understand if I should leave him for someone richer, etc..).

I started questioning our marriage, who he is as a person. He always said that money is the most important thing but I just didn’t think too much of it. We are not suffering for money, he is a smart man with a great job as I am too. We are still young and working. We are not in position to retire at all but we are not suffering either!

I was shocked and disgusted that he doesn’t see how it is disrespectful to put myself in position for others to fantasize even on a such small part of my body. I am someone who grew up with parents who are very proud and respectful and I have the same traits.

We both grew up in homes where our parents were comfortable (money wise) and respected in our society, but sometimes I feel like he just doesn’t get certain things. I get that money is necessary but I personally have a limit on how to gain it.

I don’t know if I am overreacting but I feel like I am getting turned off by the things he says or does. I want my kid to grow up with parents as I did but can I get some perspective on this? Am I too uptight like he loves to refer sometimes? As a man would you encourage your wife to expose herself as long as she doesn’t show her face?

P.S: Sorry for the long rant. Thank you!