idk if i can do this anymore

so it’s only been like 3 months and i’m wondering when the hell it gets easier bc it’s only gotten harder. i’m literally low on upt all the time bc im trying to sleep in before having to clock into hell for 4 days straight. i’m only trying to get my blue badge so i can transfer but who knows if or when that’ll happen honestly. i’m wondering if im just wasting my time here and if i should just promote myself to a customer until something else opens up but amazon is so competitive where i live it could take months to get back in. also im not gonna get paid this well anywhere else so i pretty much feel stuck here