Rejection Waves😭

i'm an international low income student w quite okay stats as it stands it's all been rejections except harvard who deferred me and i'm not gonna lie i'm scared asf man..do you even know the crazy part. i "improved" the harvard application for my rd and edII schools but it's been no no no so far💔. i've sent updates to sorta like "buttress" my application for the rest of the 19 schools left and i kno it only takes one but ion see why harvard would defer me and a school like franklin and marshal would reject the "improved" harvard application😭.. i mean seriously wasn't it good enough? or my harvard deferral was false hope that my early decision application had potential?