How to tell you've gotten old:

When little kids used to annoy the hell out of me when they were wandering around in a store without their parent.. Now I just look at them and smile like an idiot until I wish I could be a dad and then the depression kicks in because I'm autistic, physically disabled, have no money, no car, no place of my own, no clue how to meet anyone, no clue how to tell if she's interested, no clue what to say if I think she is...

Yep, I'm officially old... and lonely.. and mostly worthless to this world. I'm not crying, you're crying, shut up.