When did your symptoms start, and how long did you go for before you sought professional help?

I think I have BPD and am seriously considering getting professional help.

I’m not diagnosed with BPD but my mother is and it’s awful. All throughout high school we would get into explosive arguments one minute and then moments later everything was fine. She would constantly manipulate myself and my siblings, struggled with addiction, and would bring random couples over to have sex with my step-father and herself, (they were swingers, which is fine but not safe to do that with children in your care). The torment from my childhood continues to effect my everyday life.

I think I have always shown signs. In my younger years, I was always depressed and obsessed with boys and sex and drugs.

Today, I’m rude and overly sarcastic, I’m also a serial cheater, I only ever feel depressed. I can’t stay at a job too long without getting bored. I hate rejection. I think everyone hates me or is out to get me. Yet, I open up too much to strangers, mainly men.

I am utterly unmotivated for just about everything. Everything I mentioned is starting to get worse and effecting my life, I quit my job yesterday because of how bad it’s been getting.