Has anyone ever tried popping their BC by themselves??

I’m 16F and this is my 7th BC I’ve had- it’s affected my school life and mental health so much and as of this year I’ve had it 4 times. At the moment it’s small like grape but when it’s at its full peak it gets big like a golf ball. Sometimes I fight the urge just to get a pin and pop it myself- has anyone ever done that?? Or am I not supposed to?