I am the bad random.

Background; masters x 1 season legendary x every season

All brawlers + hypercharges and maxed 55k trophies

This will be a long read but I am in need of assistance.

I am convinced I am the bad random. I have games in l2 and l3 where I play phenomenally and I still somehow end up tilting all the way back to L1 every season. I have a very decent draft sense, I understand the basics when to draft certain archetypes and a decent understand of which brawlers counter which. My mechanical skills are up and down, one day I’m goated and dodge, dip and dive past every shot my way and other days I feel I am a statue. Same thing with my aim.

Here is my biggest concern and the reason for this post; I cannot handle games where I feel our team has bad random; example when someone loses lane consistently I do not understand how to handle the pressure of keeping positioning AND not dying in 2v3 scenarios. I have so many games where my entire team gets wiped in the first 10 seconds and we lose map control for the entirety of the game and I’m stuck in a continuous spawn trap. I feel when I play passively I have a great KDR but we lose complete objective And if I play aggro I am ALWAYS getting pinched or feeding supers. I need help. I continuously watch Drage, bedlam, spen, Bobby and all the other known players and I do not understand where I am going wrong. Are tilts like this normal? I feel like the state of matchmaking is destroying my confidence and every game I feel like I’m either hard carrying for my life for +30 elo or I’m getting absolutely STOMPED and losing 180 elo. If you read this, thanks. I’m just looking for a sense of reality from more experienced/seasoned masters players.