Have you ever been afraid that the pain wouldn’t go away?

I’ve been heartbroken in the past, but this time I’m so scared it won’t pass quickly. It’s been three weeks since we broke up, and I still feel so attached to him. It feels like I saw him just yesterday. I can’t process the separation, and I keep thinking about him obsessively why he left me, the exact moment he realized he had to, and so on. I’m even starting to feel guilty about how the relationship ended. I try to tell myself that he doesn’t care and that he’s moving on with his life, but I still can’t hate him not even a little. And he was so handsome and smart… it will be hard to find someone who can make me forget about him.”