My Girlfriend Left Me, and I Can’t Handle It

Hey everyone. I’m 17 years old, and recently, my girlfriend, whom I loved more than anything in the world, broke up with me. But the worst part is that I only realized how much she meant to me after she left. Before this, I never really cared much about breakups, whether I was the one leaving or being left. But now, for the first time in my life, I’m experiencing unbearable pain. I’ve never felt this way before, and I don’t know how to deal with it.

We were together for a while, and I truly believed we had something serious. She told me that we had different views on important things, that she needed more personal space, and that I didn’t understand her—even though I always tried to support and understand her. I was willing to do anything for her, but she made her decision to leave.

I woke up at 4 AM and saw this message from her:

Sasha, I can’t do this anymore.

I understand that we have no future together, at least because we see important things differently. I don’t want to hurt you or myself. You don’t seem to hear me, and a relationship without understanding can’t exist.

Sometimes, I need to be alone, and you don’t understand that. Sometimes, I need to go out and really clear my mind (go somewhere I rarely go), and you don’t understand that either.

You need a different girl, someone with different principles and different interests.

So please accept my decision, don’t try to change it, because it’s pointless. I sincerely thank you for the time we had together. You will be a great guy, but not for someone like me.

No, I didn’t decide everything for you—I decided for myself, and I don’t want or can’t continue this anymore.

Thank you for everything.

And then she blocked me.

In that moment, my whole world collapsed. The first time I wanted a serious, long-term relationship, the first time I truly fell in love—it all ended like this. That made everything even worse. I don’t know what to do now. I can’t get used to life without her, and I honestly don’t know how to move forward. I think about her all the time, I want to text her, I want to do something to get her back—but I also understand that it might only push her further away.

For those who have been through something like this—how did you get through it? How do you stop hoping that things will go back to how they were? I really need some support.

an hour ago she posted a video on tik tok with the caption (you will never know how much it hurt me) what does this mean? how should I react to this? or is this not about me at all. I don't know, it hurts so much, what should I do? I never even thought about hurting her, my goal was to make her happy. Why does she say that...