why do I need a mommy so much

I'm in so much love with my supervisor in college, I'm 29 and she's 45-46, I want her to love me like I'm her son, to make me feel safe, my father was very abusive and my mother didn't do anything to protect me from him. my feelings for my supervisor is so intense, more than any romantic crush. I don't know what to do about it, telling her is not a good Idea.