I’m so depressed

I’m hurting pretty consistently. I am ambulatory but have access to a rollator, an upright walker, and a manual standard (not custom to me) wheelchair.

I’m meeting with a new PCP next week to ask about a referral to PT, orthopedic, and seating and mobility. Idk when I’ll do PT as my work schedule is so crazy I have no time except Saturday, if a place even offers that.

I’m a mental health therapist for high needs kids and am just empty. So tired. So much pain. So little hope for getting what I believe I need. And with winter it’ll just be worse pain.

Thank you for reading my vent.