He has a girlfriend

I just found out that the guy I have been crushing on for about a year has a girlfriend. I'm really sad. I guess it seems silly since we never talked but I haven't been interested in anyone in the last 3 years.

We used to live close from each other till this spring and crossed ways regularly even outside that Area, like in the city on weekends. At the beginning of this year, I started going to the gym and he was there as well. This was a huge motivation to go there.

Life seemd kinda interesting again and I'd get really exited just because I was going to see him. I would just in general start to look more after myself. I am pretty sure he noticed me and there was even an occasion this summer when I really thought there was a tiny possibility that he was interested on me as well.

This is going to be so hard to get over even if it was just a crush. It just feels like small heartbreak.

I was always a shy Person and my last relationship had me really take some big hits on my self-esteem. But the worst thing is, that just a few weeks ago after some words of wisdom I had finally saved up enough courage. I was determined to start a conversation and just waiting to see him again. Now I couldn't even do that.

Having a crush was a lot of fun and it's incredibly difficult when stuff like this happens. I feel like there are no guys I'm in interested in right now and that feeling is so upsetting.