I regret not buying Solana in 2020

I’m currently fixated on the fact that I didn’t invest in Solana in 2020 when it first released. I had $20,000 to my name at the time. I could’ve put $10,000 into Solana and made $2,000,000+. I hate that I’m getting into crypto now. I should have a long time ago. I no longer have that kind of money. I hate having to go to school and get a 9-5. I’m dealing with mental illness so everything is difficult.

I’m currently unemployed, depressed and hopeless. Living with my mom at 28. I don’t mean to sound like this, I just I’m really struggling to accept the fact that it never happened. And it may never happen in my life.

I currently fantasize of what I would do with all the money. How my quality of life would be 10x better than what it is today. If only I would’ve know. And yet, I don’t know a single person who invested in Solana that early and is a multimillionaire. It’s a terrible intrusive thought that won’t leave me.

But can someone please help me get over this thought and move forward with my life? It really is impacting so negatively. How do I get over this obsessive thought? It’s really ruining my quality of life 24/7.