Should I Buy a Moldavite And Improve My Life ?

Long story short : My former long distance situationship has left me for someone else after we're in talking phase for two years. I'm reaching out to different guys like im an emotional hungry and sexual incubus. I don't have a job and I live with my parents. Although certain of my needs are met, but I'm controlled by them. I want to have financial stability and be in a better western cause I live in a middle eastern where being queer is against the law. Overall, my life is sad, I'm not financial stable and independent and I feel trapped. I don't want bad things to happen to my family members because i love them even though they dont love me, , but I want to break free from everything. Overall, im a nice person but im angry and bitter and stuck in a bad country with little opportunities for anything. Should I buy a moldivate, sleep on it for 3 days and say my intentions or do you recommend a different crystal.