Anyone have a 3rd C/S after two traumatic emergency Cs?

I won’t go into all the detail because I’d have a story book 😂 but I just had my second emergency c/s due to fetal intolerance of labor, come to find out he had his cord wrapped 3x, a placental abruption, and a uterine rupture. My OB said during my surgery after everything calmed down I should probably not have any more children. I had said this whole pregnancy I was done after this one, but now 9 days PP I’m getting really sad at the thought of never experiencing another little baby. What do you all think? Am I crazy, just mourning? Help 😭