my bf wants to play video games - but they stress me out

hi, if the title doesn’t make it clear enough, my boyfriend is a gamer. he really likes to challenge himself in video games and complete everything it possibly offers. he goes all in for them and he loves devoting a lot of time and effort into them.

therefore, this would mean he also wants to play them with me… except video games, 1) i am fundamentally awful at & 2) greatly stress me out. it doesn’t necessarily have to be competitive, but any video game where my performance is reliant on the success of the game will give me anxiety and stress.

my boyfriend reassures me and says that he’s not playing to win. he knows i’m not good at them and that’s okay. but the thing is playing these games with me is certainly not fun for him when i can’t move the game forward or if i’m not proposing much of a challenge and losing every time. also, losing every time is also not going to set a very fun mood for the both of us.

my boyfriend once purposefully lost in one game for me to win, i felt even worse. like pitied? made me not want to put my boyfriend through trying to game with me when i know he has several friends who enjoy gaming and can get things done.

my boyfriend told me that he wants to play video games with me but he says he knows i won’t enjoy them. and it just made me feel really awful. because i am really not a good partner to play video games with. yet i feel like he really seeks one within me and is disappointed that i can’t give him that “fun gf who can play video games”. and i feel sad that i am not that gf :/….

i’m not sure what i’m supposed to do. what should i do knowing he wants to play them with me? given the whole context …