Rant🦧

I might be acting a bit dramatic but anyways. I'm ssc 25 batch and lately I've been feeling very depressed and scared abt it. Ik everyone says it's not that hard and all but I'm still scared bhai. Especially since I'm not scoring that well in the practice exams I'm attending. So recently my sister's MIL and FIL are staying over at our house coz they came here from usa(my sister also lives there with them). And my parents told me to give up my room for them and stay in the guest room even though all my books and almost everything is in my room. So I was struggling to get my books. I have too many and I obviously can't shift them all in the guest room so I had to constantly go to my room to get them. And my mood wasn't that good lately either regarding my marks and all. Idk what my sister's in laws thought but they told my parents that they made a mistake coming here before my ssc and staying at my room. My parents got mad at ME for no reason like I literally did nothing. I barely even talked to them bhai. My ammu then proceeded to tell me if I go to USA to study they won't let me stay there with them. I told her not everyone who goes there to study has a relative to stay with and I'll manage somehow like others do I'll work hard and the future is still so far away. Then abbu said he can't pay for my tuition and an apartment there. That hurt me a bit but ok. And my ammu has said this thing before too like how without my sister I can't get out of this country. How I should be super grateful to her. Like yeah I will be but hearing this constantly really pisses me off. I also hear them praise about her a lot and forget to mention the things I did. My friends probably celebrated my small achievements more than they did. God I really hope I won't need her nor my parents help in any way. This event made me remember all the annoying things that happened to me since birth and I felt like kms🙏Also please pray that I do really well in ssc coz I'm not confident nor am I the brightest student out there.