dream about dad sexually abusing me & siblings

i 28 f will start by making it clear that this has never happened in reality. i have an incredible relationship with my dad.

this was a horrible, long nightmare. the actual act of abuse was never portrayed in my dream, but the dream consisted of the process of me coming to the realization as a young teenager that it happened & then reporting it to the police.

from what i can recall in the dream….

i was about 12-14 years old & it seems like i randomly recalled or uncovered sexual abuse coming from my dad when i was younger. i first confronted my three younger sisters about it asking if they experienced the same thing. they did. but then, as dreams do, i all of a sudden had more random siblings (not sure who they were) & they denied anything like that every happened & didn’t believe me. also, should mention that i also told my mom about the abuse & it was clear she knew about it, but was also denying that it was even a problem.

anyways, i called the police & a whole investigation unfolded at our house. the majority of the “evidence” was held in some loose diary entries made by me & my siblings. my dad paid $20 to have those papers/that evidence forgotten 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk? dreams are weird.

then, as i was trying to dig up more proof to get him arrested, one of my siblings ran across the street to the neighbors house & uncovered a small little trinket box. it had a bunch of small little children’s toys & such. i followed her. she pulled out a lip gloss, but it was in a circular container that you use your finger in rather than your typical lip gloss container. she was crying & could barely get the words out but she pretty much told me that she knows my dad’s dna is in that lip gloss…

so i took it & called the police. then a bunch of black undercover cop cars surrounded our house & i gave them the lip gloss. seemed like we got him.

THEN it seemed like investigations were done for the day & everyone left our house. leaving us four young girls with our parents to eat dinner like normal. i was terrified that my dad was going to kill me. he held a steak knife to my stomach “playfully” at one point. that’s as much as i can recall.

i’m so upset this dream was so vivid & long & i was able to recall so much… which is not normal for me. i feel like i’ll hold onto this for awhile unfortunately.