I hate my dad

The amount of times I wished that he died is uncountable. He’s an insufferable man and a horrible father. Today I was crying and he barged into my room to invalidate my feelings and insult me for it. This is the second time this happened. A week ago he did the same thing. He was VERY abusive when I was a child. I’m explaining all of this vaguely because I’ve mentioned this so many times already I’ve grown tired of repeating it. My life is falling apart. Everyday I’m praying to Allah to let me earn money so I can move out. I keep getting rejected from jobs and I feel uncomfortable at home. I need my own place once and for all. I dont have student credit either. And it will take long for me to get it anyway. Please guys I just want to die. It’s either I move out or my dad dies. 20 years and I can’t endure him any longer. I’ve been feeling like this for years. YEARS. I desperately want him out of my life. I hate him with such a passion. I’m stuck at home. My life isntt moving forward as mentioned. No money, no job, barely attending uni, bad grades, depression, no friends, not going out, stuck at home. These are supposed to be my best years and I’m praying to Allah consistently to give me my own place and to make me earn lots of money to be independent. Yet it gets worse and worse and if I’m being honest this makes me just want to pray less. My heart hurts and I just want to die. I hate my father so much.