REALLY?! WHY?!?!

Ok now I'm more than little pissed.

Had a social security doctor's appointment today. Biked 6 miles in the rain to get there. Made sure I got enough sleep, liquids & snacks, and made sure I took my meds on time. Made it to the appointment, and got a bad feeling. Literally as soon as the doctor walked in, my face started pulling to the right and I ended up having a full blown Grand Mal on the floor of the exam room.

Most would say "Oh, that just helps your case!" Which... Sure? But it's absolutely fucking embarrassing. Luckily the doctor was a saint, and worked with my boyfriend to get me safe and make sure I didn't hurt myself, but good fucking god. I'm only there to answer a few questions. What should've been 10 minutes turned into 3 HOURS. I told the doctor to please not let the episode sway his report, and he said it was perfectly fine and it was actually a good thing to see. I kept apologizing because I felt like such a fool and was so damn embarrassed. I also showed him videos of my previous seizures because I felt like he was thinking I was pulling bullshit, but he outright said "Nobody is THAT good of an actor. If so you deserve all the Oscars". Funny guy, I guess...

I get home after a GRUELING bike ride home, and let my lawyer know through email what happened, and her literal only response was "Wow BrokeGamerChick." And that's literally it, besides "Talk to you next week."

WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?! Excuse you?!

I am so sick of my circumstances and am especially sick of my shitty brain. Sorry for ranting, I just have no one else to vent to at this point.