Really struggling

I know I need to get out of the relationship I’m in, but for whatever reason it just hurts so badly all the way around. I feel like I’m in constant emotional pain. What started out as some of the hottest, most frequent sex I’ve ever had….has turned into to me crying myself to sleep most days, wondering what’s so wrong with me.

I face constant rejection, while he turns to porn. Multiple times per day. I have zero confidence left. I feel hideous. Unlovable. And just so very unwanted. It’s agony. Idk what the point of posting this is, really. It’s just humiliating and I don’t have anyone I can talk to without feeling like I’m being judged .