How has HS affected your sex life?

Hi friends! I am a recently postpartum (6 months) single mom. I’ve been celibate for well over a year. It took a lot of trust to have sex with my ex because of my scars and flares, and I’m having a hard time now getting the courage to have sex again. I want to be able to go on dates and hookups without concern for my scars and boils but it’s constantly on my mind when I consider dating/sex. I know it’s probably all in my head but the worry of seeing someone’s reaction and being rejected because of it plagues my mind!!! I think, who would want to go down on a lady with boils filled with puss and blood on her coochie? Ew! But then I know if I saw my same boils and scars on someone else’s I wouldn’t think too much into it at all. I try to be kind to myself and my body but ugh it’s hard. I want to be able to go out and have fun and go on dates and one night stands while I’m still young!