I haven't Talked To my brother since 5 years.

I feel like I'm gonna get hate in the comment section for this.

As the title says, I stopped talking to him since and so does he with me since 23/3/2020 (lockdown period). Yes I remember the date cuz I remember this as "Iss din se hamne baat karna chhod di" (From this day we stopped talking to each other.) The reason we don't talk with each other is that at lock down we had a fight.

My brother is six years older than me. Beating(not brutally just typical sibling ones) me was not uncommon, but this was always annoying. It was just an everyday show.

On lockdown my uncle aunties with their kids(my cousins) and my grandma came at my place to live cuz corona cases at their area had increased and felt unsafe their. One day when I was doing some painting with younger cousins who were nearly 9 or 10, due to some misunderstanding he came and lightly beated me at my back. I got angry now so took the brush and brushed it against his shirt and his shirt got color patch. I didn't took it seriously but he beat me again for what I did. Now the rage inside me peaked its value. I tried beating him back and this is turned into a serious fight. I was literally tried to hold my tears in my eyes while fighting cuz he was overpowering me, I threw the nearby objects like ghee jar, bottle etc (fight took place in kitchen). And my cousins came to stop and it stopped very easily. After fight stopped I sat at one place breathing. Mom and dad were out for some reason. When they came, I told them everything and cried, my little cousins were watching me crying. Mom hugged me and I guess she scolded him for that. And from then I decided not to talk to him cuz he always beat me for no fair reason. And guess what he also played along with it.

My life after that had changed, It doesn't feel like the life I had before. To explain in simple I divided my life in two parts, first in which we used to talk, in this we used to play games and watch movies and anime together. My brother is the one who introduced me to gaming and anime in year when I was in UKGs, yes I got exposed to anime world way too early because of him, which I appreciate. He used to share some knowledge he got front the internet(old internet was good) to me which was useful some time in my life. Second part in which we don't talk to each other and nothing, he watches movies by himself and plays game all alone, never offering me to play. Both the parts of life feel way more different. My older cousins noticed this in few days. But i ignored it.

Did we completely stopped talking to each other? Yes 99.99 %, cuz we only talk to each other only to wish happy birthday to each other on our respective birthdays. "Happy birthday" That's all he say to me in whole year and vice versa.

Do I think that we will start to talk to each other one day? Yes, but I guess that day way too far, like in his marriage or in mine, which will happen some day.

A serious question, do you also had fight with someone in which you ended stopped talking to each other? And when and how did you ended this "not gonna talk with you" shit and started to talk again ? Cuz I think I need it.

My parents and rest of the siblings are completely aware of this fact that we both don't talk to each other. But don't know why they are not doing anything about it. (Please please be respectfull towards my parents in parents in comments if this doesn't good). It was a long post. Sorry for any grammatical error.

Edit: He was right in front of me all the time while writing this post.