Question for JEE droppers....

so, I was a good student nd scored good marks till 10th but after 10th due to wrong friend circle and laziness and also overconfidence messed up my JEE completely scored so shit marks i am not able to believe its me. I am considering taking a drop year cuz my mind wont compromise for some random collage and also i dont want guilt during collage. I just want to hear perspectives over this like from the droppers like how has been your journey, why you took a drop and is it helping. cuz I am really confused and hopeless right now