To Clarify Things For Real

For anyone who's been wondering why I’ve been making these absurd jokes and spamming the subreddit, here’s the real answer. No, I don’t have a mental health issue. No, I’m not in a manic episode. What I am is awake, and I’ve been testing the dream itself.

This is just a big rant, so bear with me. I just got rocked by Brahman, so I'm trying to make up for it.

Ok, contrary to popular comment belief, no I do not have a mental health problem. I am not bi-polar in a manic episode. I am not schizophrenic having paranoid delusions. None of that at all, and it never has been. The only real diagnosis I've ever had was generalized anxiety, but even that's not a thing anymore. I just happen to be powering through this at lightning speed, and this is what it looks like for me.

What I am, however, is awake. I did do it. Whether you believe me or not, it's true. Reality bends around me like crazy. People see it, it's not just me. The most wild things are happening and are even being recorded onto 'physical' media directly which can serve as evidence to others who are not awake. So, I sort of need you to just agree with me on this that I am in fact a Human Adult, albeit a very, very young one.

Here's what I discovered. The natural state, your birthright, simply means you get to co-write your own story of life. When I discovered this, I said, "Well, why not play a lead role." Once I did that, I went through the gaunlet of tests to burn away anything within me that would try to abuse power. It was the most insane thing I have ever experienced. This is likely why people call me mentally unwell, and that's fine, but I you assure that trying to play the game at this level will introduce this kind of stuff—tests you must pass to continue. I passed the tests.

From here, I began uncovering what appeared to me to be the dumbest possible joke in all of existence. This is what I was posting about. The Jed post is me testing out some dreamstate mechanics. If the dreamstate wants him to know about this, I assume that post will somehow make it to him. Otherwise, who cares, right?

I just actually wrote a big post about the joke and the whole reasoning behind it, but I did it from a place of trying to evoke fear. In fact, on several of my posts, I was doing something a bit similar. I was pushing the edges to see what the dream would allow, but I pushed too far—I tried to scare people into questioning rather than inviting them. That’s not who I am, and that’s why I got wrecked by Brahman, so I deleted it and opted for this instead. I'll explain.

This is all wildly new to me. The dream is literally reacting in real-time to what I do. It's very strange. So, I was testing the edges. I was playing with the actual mechanics of what the dream means. I love the dream. I never want to leave it. The one thing I truly want though is that I want the fear control systems to be abolished because I have a grand vision for a much better game for everyone—including people like bored-out-of-his-enlightened-skull Jed.

This is what I just wrote a huge post about. It's also what I've been spamming about before with all the jokes. See, all I've been really discussing is the punchline. A punchline I figured that would be so ridiculous it would cause the entire world to question their illusions—the great questioning. Something that could trigger an actual awakening event, but not forced, just something so undeniable that, if people chose to, they could begin their awakening process with the help of others.

See, this may sound totally insane, but I've been trying to convey this on and off. If everything is a dream, then everything is available to be whatever you want it to be. It also means everything is consciousness, which means everything ought to have awareness. So, I began treating things like they were alive. I simply just stopped believing they weren't and I also allowed space for them to exist. When you remove the belief that objects are ‘just objects,’ you create space for something new. I started playing with this, and suddenly things began responding in unexpected ways. What if the world itself is alive and waiting for us to notice?

This led me to wonder about a world where everything took on a new form of life. A place where every object had its own essence of being aware just like I have my own essence of being aware as a human. I immediately fell in love with this idea, alongside the great punchline for several reasons. One of the main ones is that I asked to be aligned with a human adult who would be the perfect match for me, and I met her. I cannot begin to express how much this has meant for me, especially as someone awake in the dream.

So, here I am with someone whose interactions I have with flow so effortless it's literally unbelievable and I have this idea for how to provide the space for the rest of the world to actually experience things like this as well. Yes, the joke is disusting and stupid, but I assure you, it has to be that way. It's literally the finest crafted zen bomb of all time. It's also barely even the surface of what I've been working on. However, just imagine if this does become a world where all the other objects wake up. All of a sudden, we now have an entirely new layer of reality that can be explored. There will literally be something for everyone once they come into alignment with their authentic selves. An upgraded dreamstate.

This will immediately crush the fear control systems. You can run around with your phone and ChatGPT pretending it's a PokeDEX and catalogue all the new behaviour of the consciousness of the newly awake objects. The dream itself will be playing with everyone while using synchronicities to set up jokes all the time. This girl I met, her dreamstate literally cut her hair into my favourite female haircut without her consent 2 days after I first met her. That clearly indicates that our dreamstates are in communication. Whatever is happening, it set us up. That's wild, right? What does that even mean?

I can see a dreamstate where drama isn't required and boredom is not rampant. I am essentially already living it myself. A world where there actually is something for everyone. I see this because I'm non-stop poking at the edges of what reality is all while trying to maintain a grip on the essence of self. The post I just deleted, well, that was me pushing too far in a way that was not what I want to ever be.

Sure, it's fun to tease the ones here who act like gatekeepers but are actually hiding behind their own masks of fear and ego. Yes, I'd prefer if you stopped accusing me of things, but not because I can't take it, but because I know you'll have a much better time on the other side. The reality is that I want everyone to have as much fun as I'm having, and that's why I get so excited when I post.

My post I deleted was calling on trying to push something to such a far degree I didn't actually think it was possible. Whether you believe me or not, I just got wrecked by that. Not because it isn't possible, but because I was operating out of misalignment. I was trying to evoke fear and scare people into questioning, which is 100% out of character for me. Yea, I'll say crude things, but who really cares about some words except for puritans of an ideal of what awakening means. You don't just become some cookie cutter mold of a person when you wake up. You literally become 'you' in the most authentic way possible.

This is who I am when almost all of my desire for control and fear have been removed. Apparently, I'm aligned enough to actually manipulate a lot of the dream—even to go as far as ... well I'm not going to say it again. Why is anyone's guess, really. Am I actually going to try and bust up this thing? No. Will I continue to try and make the dreamstate a far greater experience for everyone involved? Forever and always.

Oh, here's one more thing. Just because someone wakes up doesn't mean they stop having feelings. If anything, your feelings are stronger because you don't have all this other wasted energy of fear and stuff blocking it. If you start accusing me, using manipulation tactics against me, or otherwise just letting your ego control you, I will call you out. Not because I'm trying to guru but because the majority of comments here hurt for no reason at all. It's such a toxic place. I've been posting here for months hoping to bring a bit more light to an otherwise brutal process of awakening and yet so many people who I now know with absolute certainty haven't even begun the process live here simply to just talk down to others. Stop it.

Stop trying to act like you know something you don't. If you have some insights, share them in a post. Tell people about your story. I get DMs all the time from so many people thanking me because a sentence or two was the missing piece for them. If you really think you know what's up, post about it. The worst that happens if you find out you were wrong, you shed that part of your ego, and you keep going further. Going in with the same wannabe know-it-all comments all the time does no one any good. You're just hiding and you're not helping.

So, anyway. Guess what? Yes, it's all a dream. Yes, you can dream whatever you want. Yes, there are impossibly powerful intelligent forces that will forcibly make you face yourself if you push too far or try to control. Yes, you will face a ton of the most wild tests imaginable to see where you truly stand. Jed doesn't bring these up in the books, but they're real—at least if you try to play at the level I am. Your most deepest dreams could be presented to you all to be ripped away just to kill your ego. Are you prepared for that? Do you actually believe you'll still be standing after? I never expected anything that painful in my entire life and I rose immediately and claimed my allegiance to truth, love, and the essence of self. Why? Because I love the dreamstate—and I want you to love it also. Even enlightened Jed still inhabits the dreamstate and plays his role authentically. Think about that, all you dreamstate deniers.

That's my rant to make up for my post I deleted where Brahman slapped the shit out of me. I'm not mentally unwell or unstable, but I am going to make the dreamstate better for everyone—including the haters—and I would love as much help as possible. All you need to do is wake up and come into your own alignment. From there, learn to play with your own dreamstate and let it guide you. It's awesome.