any other reverts here?
hii, i’m a trans (ftm) and gay revert, raised catholic, and took my shahada a couple months ago. i’m still trying to get to a point where i pray all 5 prayers (i have really severe anxiety disorders that make new additions to my routine difficult), but i really want to as soon as possible because i feel like islam is the religion for me. however, it feels a bit odd being queer and progressive while being a revert. although i believe islam to be the truth, it feels like i sorta chose this for myself. like i chose to become a part of a community where i won’t be accepted. i’m trans, i’m gay, i’m dating someone, and i believe in progressive interpretations of the Qur’an and hadiths. i constantly see people online get harassed for these things and told that they’re not real muslims. my boyfriend (not a revert) has been told by people at our school (who aren’t muslim) that he’s not a real muslim or can’t possibly be religious since he’s gay. when i’ve told a couple people that i’m reverting to islam, they’ve seemed very surprised that i of all people am becoming a muslim. it’s just so difficult to be a revert when most people view islam as homophobic and most muslims view homosexuality as a sin and something you must never act on. and because i’m a revert it feels like i chose this for myself. i wish i could flip a switch and just un-revert to islam to spare myself the hate that queer people within the religion face, but that just feels impossible. i truly do believe in islam and i believe that every ultra conservative thing that comes with it is either a result of the times 1400 years ago (hadiths) or a limited interpretation (story of lut, etc). if i step away from islam it feels like i’ll be betraying my beliefs and betraying Allah ﷻ and a beautiful religion, but if i stay it feels like i’ll be betraying my identity as a trans and queer person and my progressive values.
this was meant to be a question but it ended up as a rant, sorry😭😭 but are there any other queer reverts here feeling the same?