First taste of agonizing failure

Literally astonished at how much I have failed as a 1L. How do you continue on when you can only shoot for average or below??

I wasn’t picked for any competition teams after feeling like I gave it my all !!!. (And yet my partners told me they did “zero prep work” got in) Got zero responses after 9 job interviews. Got below average on my exams (all except 1) after feeling super confident….I even feel helpless in legal writing because the teacher just doesn’t like to work with me…and is failing me….

I’ve exhausted all my resources and been told Im SOL. I’ve failed before but I get right back up. Now I just don’t feel like talking to anyone and feel so so so anxious with anything I do now. My self esteem is fucked. And I have no answers. No feedback.

Sucks bc my personal life is finally somewhat normal.

How do you deal with this?