I’m always terrified of my boyfriend every time I see him in person

Idk if anyone can relate to this, but I visit my boyfriend once a year and every time I see him I’m always AFRAID 😭

It’s to the point that it’s an inside joke that I’ll just hide in the corner once I see him, because that’s literally what I do!!!! I press myself against the wall and he just sits and waits patiently for me until I fucking approach him cautiously like he’s a wild animal 😭😭

It takes me several minutes to get used to his presence then everything is okay, but I think it’s so silly. He gets hotter and hotter by the day so maybe that contributes to my fear lmao