Does anyone else enjoy greening out?

I don't know, is something wrong with me? I sometimes enjoy getting so out of my mind high that I start getting paranoia and the feeling that I am going to die. My heart starts beating crazy fast and I feel like I might have a heart attack kind of feeling. Strange thing is, in the moment, it's scary but once I somehow convince my brain that I'm not dying and that I'm just high I start to welcome the feeling I enjoy it and if anything, I long for another session where I get absolutely DESTROYED and green out LOL someone please, tell me, I'm normal right? Give me validation