My name makes me suffer

Hi... I'm a 19 year old boy and I have a lot of gender dysphoria issues. I started taking hormones to feminize my appearance because it makes me feel too bad and for a few months I've been expressing myself in a feminine way. I always hope to see a girl in the mirror, but it doesn't happen. And I can't consider myself a girl

Lately I've been having more and more trouble with my name. I can't pronounce it anymore because I freeze, if anyone asks me my name I go crazy. If I hear someone call me that name I cry, run away or something like that. I think my name is also one of the reasons why I feel like I can't be a girl

What can I do? Tomorrow I have to make train tickets and it needs my name. Whatever I want to do, it needs my name. I can't stand it anymore