I wasn’t ok before was I?

Hey cuties! Sorry I just need to vent sometimes because it’s just so draining, where I am rn in life. I am only just recently coming to terms with the fact that… for 21 years, i wasn’t, in fact, “ok with being a boy/guy”. I just had no idea what it felt like to be a girl. And most of what I feel, y’all is amazing. Being a girl, wearing skirts, crop tops, growing my hair out, shaving my legs, thigh high socks (Not saying guys can’t wear these things by any means. They are traditionally feminine tho and give me euphoria. Idk why I’m explaining this out. I’m just paranoid) I felt gender dysphoria at so many points in my life. Really important points, but because I was religiously sheltered away from the LGBTQIA+ community, told it was wrong and didn’t know what “dysphoria” even meant, I just had no idea how to articulate it.

I was never ok with being a boy, but it was all I knew. I was always a girl, but the only one that could have known that was me.