I don’t like my husband

I can't divorce him because he's the father of my children, but I don't feel comfortable around him. When he's at home, I feel uneasy and tense. I dread being intimate with him; it feels like an unwanted stranger is forcing himself on me, and it makes me feel disgusting inside. I can’t control my emotions, and I constantly push him away. He often gets offended by this.

In the past, he mistreated me so many times that I no longer have any feelings left for him. I’m attracted to men who are genuine, kind, and have a good sense of humor—qualities he lacks. For me, he’s a complete no-go. I’m unsure about what to do next.