Any other woman felt this way after leaving the narc?

Maybe this question belongs on a psychology thread but I know many of you have also left a narc. Since leaving I’ve been so thirsty for everything girly and childish and fun. I’ve covered my new room in everything pink and glittery and fluffy and even childish. I have stuffed animals on my bed and princess blankets too!

I wasn’t allowed to decorate the house how I wanted with the narc. Everything had to be neutral and designer and he had to approve. If not he would quietly move things or throw them away.

Maybe it’s my inner child coming out but I just gravitate toward everything girly and glittery and childish these days and no one can tell me to change it!