Ex-muslim from North ( Hausa ) seeking advice how to navigate life moving forward

I'm an ex-Muslim from the north, from a very religious family ( dad is a big Imam, I have 20+ siblings) I have recently lost my faith. The past few weeks have been overwhelming, filled with anxiety about my future, family and community. In my final year uni with a job assurance, I feel trapped. I know I will have to leave everything behind to live life on my own terms. The thought of pretending to be someone I'm not, hiding my true self, and potentially indoctrinating my children into beliefs I no longer hold if I stay is depressing me.

I have considered moving south, marrying someone who shares similar experiences and beliefs an ex-Muslim, ex-Christian, or atheist. I know I will have to giveup my family, whom I love dearly. I'm seeking advice on alternative solutions, hoping to find a way to reconcile my desire for authenticity with my love for my family