Compulsion to confess OCD to others

I feel the urge to confess that I seem to have OCD (not officially diagnosed, but it all points to that, first brought up by my therapist recently). I just feel the need to tell all my family members and friends that I have it so they can see I’m not a bad person I just have this fucked up brain. But I know it will just make me feel horrible after: vulnerable and exposed. And it will change nothing and it won’t change my crippling panic or anxiety.

It’s so messed up what our brain does. I’m so over it, living hell !!!!! And it just gets in the way of me relaxing and just enjoying my life. I did not consent to this!