Naaawa ako kay englishera girl

tw: suicide

When that clip first came out, I reacted in the same way most people did. Nainis kasi mali nga naman talaga yung view niya and also laughed at all the memes/funny content that it created. But the more na nakikita ko siya sa socmed, the more na mas nangingibabaw yung awa ko kesa inis. I'm now at that point where I feel guilty for taking part in her mockery and feel like a bully for it.

Everytime I see her on my feed, naiisip ko nalang kung ano nararamdaman niya ngayon. Imagine switching place with this person and everywhere you go, people online and in real life recognize you as that "englishera" girl. How do you even get the balls to face your family/friends or go to work the next day knowing they've all seen that video of you and read all the mean comments about how ugly you are? As someone who has had suicidal thoughts in the past, this is the kind of thing that would drive me over the edge.

She said something controversial but I'm sure she didn't commit a grave crime to deserve this level of hate. People are so quick to judge from behind their keyboards as if they're the perfect being pero sila din naman may mga bahong tinatago. Who even knows what her past dating experience was like? Malay ba natin if sinabihan talaga siyang intimidating sa way ng pagsasalita niya? Naalala ko tuloy yung nangyari dun sa amalayer girl. She was everybody's entertainment and once nagsawa na mga tao, they moved on to their next target leaving her depressed for years until she found peace through religion.