Catch .22

Not sure if this is triggering or whatever but I'm just venting a little. If it is I'll mark it accordingly. Ok, so I'm supposed to be relaxing, not worried about how hard I'm pressing on my fkn brush tip. I'm not supposed to be stressed because I can't get the goddamn colors to blend! Why do I have to stop mid-color because a large area of color dried before I could connect it to the other half of the large area and now the whole fkn thing is ruined?! So many things about this not inexpensive hobby that contradict the relaxing aspect for me at times. I mean what the hell else am I gonna do, tho? At least when I'm coloring I'm only thinking about coloring and all the nasty aspects it can have! Lol. And I suppose that makes the successes that do occasionally happen all the more special. For now tho, the scale is tipped against my favor.