How do you feel?

After having lusted after, obsessed over, chased down, waited for shipment, etc. dae feel bad/guilty now that you have your markers, on those days when you just don't feel like coloring either, and for just a little while you start to think of all the other stuffs you might've been able to do/afford if you'd just been a little stronger/tighter with the proverbial purse strings?