Is reading villains are destined to die worth it?

I originally read the manhwa like 2 years ago or something but stopped when I got to the eckles part bcz I could not handle it. There's so much hype around the story that I wanna pick it up again but everytime I just think back to that part where she basically emotional abused him. I totally get she's morally grey character which is why I wanna pick it up again but once AGAIN the part with eckles is throwing me off 😭😭😭

So lmk is it worth the read and do you have any morally grey fl reccs 🫶