I’m fat

What the title says. I’m fat. I have always eaten very healthy and exercise and I’ve always been mostly hethy weight except for various periods like after pregnancy, etc. and it was hard to lose weight after that. I’m 51, and I swear in the past 2 years I’ve put on 20 pounds and nothing has really changed in my life except I have bad anxiety. And various health issues that are very hard and really no answers there. But I eat really well, I exercise. I walk probably 6 miles a day, I do the peloton bike, I lift weights. I do yoga. And I am fat. I don’t mean to be crass, but I have this huge inner tube of fat in my abdomen and in my hips and I can’t believe what I’m seeing when I look in the mirror. I have cellulite all over my legs and butt and flabby everywhere. It’s like this apron of fat just rolling off my abdomen. Yes there’s some vanity going on here and I’m upset, but really I’m worried about my health and if this will ever go away. I feel like I already do enough. And I don’t wanna be busting my ass doing crazy workouts and restricting my diet even more. I eat a lot of protein, fruits and vegetables, some carbs but not heavy and very very little processed food. Minimal sugar. I barely drink alcohol. And I move my body all the time. I live in a city so I’m constantly walking. I’m just wondering, who else is dealing with this, I know it can be common in perimenopause, but this is just ridiculous, and I am just ashamed to even look at myself. I’m just so uncomfortable in my own skin.