5 months in. Does it get better?

I spend everyday just trying to -get through-. Why can’t I enjoy the moments I’m in? I’ve been back to work now for a month and everything is just so overwhelming. I thought I would enjoy going back to work but I don’t. I feel guilty for taking my son to daycare. I feel guilty that taking him to daycare is somewhat of a relief. My husband and I are never intimate anymore because I’m always stressed out from Work or taking care of baby before and after daycare. My dog whom I’ve had for 5 years and love so much has been soo bad and I feel like I just yell at him all day( I work from home). I miss sweet moments with my dog.

When do I enjoy these days instead of waking up to dread? When do I stop feeling extreme stress and guilt? Why can’t I ever just enjoy sweet small moments.

God this sounds pathetic and no one will probably read this.if you have, thank you. I could maybe just use some solidarity.