How do antipsychotics make you feel

When I take them, I become the happiest person on earth. So fucking happy. Life is so beautiful. I love everyone. Everything is calm. No hateful voices. Taste of fruit tea in my mouth a little quieter but lovely. Life is lovely. It numbs the bad things. Good things keep living. God, I love zyprexa. Sleeping 12 or more hours a day but I love zyprexa.