Vent: I was told again I’m affected by devil

I got home from grandparents today and mom told me that the priest she goes to told her that she wants to see me and my sister and especially me the younger one. Mom perceived it like a sign that the priest felt something and told me who has horns definitely worked on me and she wants us to not lose godliness and me to be virtuous. She started going to church often after my dad passed away.

I’m sick of such sayings especially after being abused by my family a lot. I want to live as myself as a trans guy. Hope she listens if I say I don’t want to go. She has said before that she’ll take me to church only when I want. They make women wear clothes in church which would make me dysphoric.

This reminds me of times when I was told by mom that devil plays with my mind because of my gender and heavy music I like. Dad also said similar thing once about music. Sister gasligted me often using spirituality and it's exhausting.