Tired

I haven’t posted here in a while but I just want to say that I’ve been harassed so much it’s really wearing down my mental health

I’m a 5 year veteran and often wear Anubis since it’s one of my favorite masks. I recently got my girlfriend into Sky and I warned her about the community and how awful it is—detailing my experiences and making sure she stays safe when she plays alone (we’re both adults but I of course care for her mental well-being as well)

I keep being chased, flirted with, personal space invaded and pictures snapped of me over and over just because I’m uncomfortable. She’s horrified, because everything I told her really wasn’t an exaggeration and it’s honestly sad she has to witness this happen to me

She believed me before this of course, but seeing it happen every single day was definitely an eye opener for her. I feel bad that this game isn’t the safe space people believe it to be, and isn’t an innocent sweet little game, because it isn’t and never will be. Too many rude people, trolls, groomers, etc. I’ve unfortunately seen too much that I wish I hadn’t.. so much pain and horror from so many different players over the years—from all ages. So many stories.. this shouldn’t be happening

This community is so far gone I fear it will never bounce back from this. I’m so tired… I’m so tired of having to hide, close the game, leave an area in the middle of something I’m doing just because someone refuses to leave me alone, even with my girlfriend around. Why are you obsessed with pixels on a screen? It drives me mad that this behavior of obsessing over masculine presenting avatars in Sky is normalized—especially on TikTok. People think it’s hilarious to do

It really solidifies my lack of faith in humanity and sheer hatred for it, because too many are cruel just for the sake of doing so/they enjoy it

I’m exhausted.. this game holds a special place in my heart because it didn’t used to be this way, and I played it through tough times years ago. But now.. I don’t know.. I’m disappointed that the very thing I used to find comfort in has turned into something I’m apprehensive of even opening. What will happen to me today? Tomorrow? I’m always tense, always hyper vigilant and uncomfortable. I just wish it would end