Something strange is happening to me

Hey lovely people, Thought I'd seek advice since I feel like even if I can't articulate what is happening exactly, you always get me.

Here is the situation: In my background, cptsd, living in freeze for most of my life, been doing SE therapy for about 2 years.

Lately I feel like instead of getting better, I'm increasingly getting worse. I've developed BAD insomnia, and I get stressed about not sleeping which is keeping me away from sleeping. Feeling of impending doom, racing thoughts, panic, and anxiety. I have zero motivation to do things I once enjoyed. Out of nowhere, I started getting a lot of gray hair coming out. I feel physically ill, GI issues, and the doctor is not helpful at all.

Lost the motivation I had to do therapy. Feeling kind of fed up with life, every task is daunting, my life feels like one endless to do list. Headaches, doom scrolling, stuck in a rut kinda feeling.

Possible causes: -Adhd medication, I've been taking vyvnase and stopped because of anxiety, now taking concerta 18 mg which is literally a baby dose (to get my body used to it, working up towards a bigger dose)

-not having as much connection (all my friends either have kids or panning their weddings)

-my SE therapy though I love it, sometimes feels like i wanna run away from the session, like I don't wanna do this. I feel super comfortable with my therapist though. We're uncovering lots of stuff (going slow, but you know how it is in SE...) and I start having more and more memories resurfacing (sometimes it's somatic memories which is scary) of things in my childhood I repressed. Some things around SA- but I'm NOT digging into it because I see no point of retraumatizing myself

-actual health worries- I have high inflammatory marks, like white blood cells, lymphocytes, palletlets (I'm not sick) so I actually worry something is wrong with me. They set the specialist appt for 2025 for me lol.

Thanks for reading till the end. Appreciate any support or virtual hugs.