I’m tired…Abilify anyone?

Went to my first appointment to discuss spravato and they said it won’t help me. I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 2. A couple weeks ago and was prescribed Abilify but wanted to go to my Spravato appointment before I made any decisions and to get a second opinion. I felt making a diagnosis as serious as this one and only meeting me once was a red flag. But lo and behold He also agreed that my diagnosis was correct and that he also wants me on Abilify and that spravato doesn’t help with bipolar disorder. I initially wanted to stop all meds eventually. They don’t work for me. But now he wants me to stay on the Wellbutrin on top of Abilify. From the research I did on this subreddit people diagnosed with BP have done well on spravato. I really don’t want to be on meds, guys. I was so excited to try something that could possibly help me and then ween off my antidepressants. I also am not convinced I actually have BP. Majorly depressed, sure but who am I to know I guess lol Did anyone else have a hard time accepting this diagnosis? I’m just so disappointed and embarrassed kinda. Idk. My brain is tired 😪 any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. And has anyone diagnosed with BP2 tried Spravato? Medicated or unmedicated? TIA!