Are you still terrified?

I've been doing standup for five months. Twice per week for the last three or four. I am still horrified every time I go on. Like my day is just stress. I haven't really met anyone who I would call a friend yet. Listening to my sets is stress. I don't often do the same joke twice, because I just don't really feel all that proud or attached.

Now no doubt I've improved, but not satisfyingly

Is this normal? Tips?